the weekly
musings and thoughts from the week
01
things to buy for summer:
a straw bag for picnics,
gold bangles
flip flops
a red bathing suit
a new deck of cards
glittery eyeshadow
cherry lip gloss
02
I’m walking through the neighborhood in the evening with no headphones just listening to all the life happening:
a couple is fighting, someone is cooking dinner; pasta. I can hear a washing machine, a car rumbling, kids throwing a ball in the front yard, a dog barks at a police siren faint in the distance.
it’s far too warm to be wearing a sweater
03
I saw red rose on the street that was run over by a car, perfectly pressed into the cement and for some reason it almost made me want to cry and I hate that my brain will take something like a run over flower and make me feel the nostalgia of summer two years ago. I hate my brain sometimes because everything is so symbolic. It’s like my consciousness is stuck with all the memories and pain and joy I’ve ever felt and I keep it there so when I move through life, I get reminded every day of those moments. Every day I get reminded that I’m so alive.
04
It’s crazy how I can be so depressed and then I’ll go out and socialize and then everything is okay. Remember how I said sun is an antidepressant? Well so is Barney’s Beanery on a Wednesday night.
05
“An object in motion stays in motion” I tell myself every day as I get up early, go to my workout, cook myself breakfast, take my vitamins, put away my laundry, write in my journal, feed the cats, try to stay off my phone, actually clean out my car, and respond to all my emails.